blah to being sagacious,
was i actually ever?
lets go fly a kite
and devour the golden gate, cover to cover.

by way of acknowledgment: <3 xkcd comixzz

salt water, slattered shutters

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief…and unspeakable love
- Washington Irving

It wipes away some of the shame. The depths of sorrow, the darkest rage. No longer perceived as a weakness of will and spirit. More relieved that the expression was not contrived. Kitschy art or vapid song, a sculpted sonnet, stinky socks to hide the truth. Behind closed doors and under wraps, but as it was, as it is. No longer polarizing outward expression and inner world. You changed me more than I dared admit.

Bloody hell more garrulous crap. Careening wildly between insomnia and narcolepsy. Two days in bed and two days no sleep. Nasty nasty pattern. Wild child of Africa. Psychedelic rainbows. Sinewy muscle. Artistic soul. I laik.

"Ahpunehneh" is not a proper word.

i just like the title of the blog post, but have yet to be called an "ahpunehneh" which is probably why i'm more amused than riled lol.
i didn't know people called indians that in singapore.

effwhypee

one thousand three hundred and sixty hours ago, i though i had things under control. phail! phuck!
in research, you work hard and sweat blood for years to make beautiful science and get a lovely publication.
You could wait and labour years just to inherit a straw hut, that is better than nothing though haha.

L'année dernière

2009; the year of highest highs and the lowest lows.

January 2009
looking for a Boban, Giju-mon or Eappan... to please mummy.
is screeeeeeeeptwriting
should be screeeeeeeeptwriting
we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist
too many animals in bed.
is searching for the trigger...
February 2009
achooooo! anitha andiappan is in zurich lah! bleddy puma's...
must get her act together. attention! lef-lef-lef-right-left.
it's not the end of the world. lets pick up the pieces and move on...
yay!
can.
can't get the last bubble out of her bubble tea rawr!

March 2009
wants an onigiri.
will chew concrete and bite bears with you.
trains and sewing machines
discovered discovery, singapore-bangkok @_@
Happy Pi day! hoho (:
rabbit lost in a big grey room, for you we'll bake the cake of rainbows and smiles.
DeeeeeeePeeeeeeeeeee
for i was born to dream.
in search of the human moment
which D3 girl is high on tau huey?

April 2009
has lost her shadow from over-questioning existence.
still absent from the world. excuse me.
Next month, world, next month and I will live again.
weltschmerz
mamihlapinatapai
solipsism syndrome
must . stop . playing . sudoku .
biomaterialscontinentalphilobimedicaldevicesfilmelectronics

May 2009
the narcoleptic
does anyone "poke" anyone anymore on fb?
must shift out must shift out mustshiftout now now nooooow
plantar fasciitis? archilles tendonitis? in any case... ouch
wants to watch anna karenina but will be home then. rawr!
and it's official.
penang confirms first H1N1 case...home how?!
confused, peeved, angsty, confused and confused.

June 2009

July 2009

August 2009

September 2009

October 2009

November 2009
PutainMerdeLaVache!
La vie est merde mais je l'aime... j'aime merde? putain. je dois dormir
lets make some postmodern kitsch
ram-smelly-poo-doggy, i'm trading you for an alpaca
i laik yor profail peekcher, we be frenzzzz on faysbuk?
c'est une guerre
killers and/or muse?
toothpaste kisses
come by and hit me round the head if i'm not choking on my notes
to err is human, to arr is pirate.
leviathan = large sea monster
phailure in academiks
one word, harrowing!

December 2009
ruby velvet cake
where to find those shoes mama? :(
misses having dance prac during the hols
has to stop giving away her copies of midnight's children... raaaaaaaawr!
hallo, i miss our kooky days. we'll go nant tracking in a different world someday.
we would sing and dance around because we know we can't be found
another child of chaos theory
has to stop behaving like the holidays are already here
all i want for christmas is you
auto-rickshaws, buffaloes and spiced tea.